For Ever and Never

She is standing on a grave with white roses in her hands. She kneels down in the wet snow and places the flowers in front of his name, and says to herself... "It is half of my soul down there, down in the ground, under this stone. Her skirt is soon soaked, she gets wet and cold but doesn't really feel it, her spirit is with him, that is lost and forever gone.

She feels sleepy and maybe she's dreaming when his warm hands touches her shoulders and his familiar voice rings in her ears. "You've been sitting here for hours. Get up. I am not here waiting for you".

Nobody there of course. But now she felt how cold and stiff she were, and started slowly to walk towards home. A warm shower and a nap was just what she needed.

He came to her again in the sleep. She knew he was just an illusion, but she couldn't stop her tears from running down her face. He smiled at her and stroked her forehead, she felt that the sun had entered the room and filled her with light and comforting love.

"I know you feel like giving up," he said lovingly, "but now that I have left, it is even more important that you stay, and that you are strong. Now I need you to live for both of us. I will give you my thoughts, my skills and my strength. Well that is a real good artillery I tell you...!"

He walked out of the room backwards and again she was alone, not so sure now that it had been a dream. But she felt certain that she had received a message from him, the one who was hers, --- forever and never again---

When I met Kevin...

I had a really strange experience this summer. I worked with this boy, he was an extra at thr restaurant, just sixteen years old.
But we got along really well. Both of us were very happy with each others company, and very easily did we turn a dull shift into a carnival.

His name was not kevin, far from it. But without knowing how or why, he was kevin to me. Without thinking, I would say: "Kevin, could you please..." He looked at me with a funny face, said, "My name is Not Kevin!! I was confused, didn't know why I kept saying that - but it happened again and again.

After a while my "Kevin" started liking his new name, and i made up a story about how he was this musician called Kevin in his previous life, and in that same incarnation I had been his big sister. He loved the idea and we used to have a lot of fun with this "new reality" of ours.

Sometimes I wonder though. Could there be any truth to our little fantasy together? Have you ever met anyone for the first time, feeling you already know - all there is to know about them?

To loose a Soulmate... (To find oneself...)

A lot of our friends said we were like "One person"... And we were! We were like you!

When we met my world turned upside down. It started rotating in your direction. Even before I knew your name you made my heart beat faster every time I saw you on the street. When someone finally told me, I kept your name in my heart. First time you spoke to me, I thought it had to be some kind of misunderstanding.

You invited me to your place, and I came, filled with awe. We had everything in common, and destiny had finally brought us together. I was the only one who understood you. I was the chosen one.

This was sacred.

I shared your bed at night, and didn't sleep. I spent the night watching you, and listening to the sound of your breath.

One year was the exact time. Then I did what you did not want me to. I followed my heart. My young God changed into demon and the curses rained upon me.

Then the search started. Who was I - without you? What was my life without your visions? What was MY thoughts and opinions when I threw off yours?

The result is maybe not so spectacular. But it is real, it is mine!

It is me.

For a Reason, for a Season, or for a Lifetime.

Has it ever occured to you the different natures of your friendships? If you are lucky, you have a few friends that you have known from birth. Maybe you have siblings and cousins that also are your friends, or the girl next door, or the boy from kindergarden.

Have you thought about why your friends are there?

Some friends happen to enter your life just in the right time. Exactly when you need help and are struggelig with something... The right person appears, stands by you and supports you - and then disappears from your life again after.

Other friends are there for a season - Like maybe a colleague you could talk to about anything, but after you got a new job, you just didn't manage to keep in touch.

And then there are friends that are there for a lifetime. These are your true soulmates, the ones you feel safe and natural with, even after years apart from each other. I am lucky to have a few of these... and I thank God for the blessings that they truly are.

Remember to keep in touch with your friends! Send them a message or a postcard once in a while. They deserve it, and so do you.

( Picture: Linda Sloan. Linda and me in Deir-el-medina 2007)

Read my hand, Linda Lou!

Picture: Linda and me, Ramla Village, Egypt 07

This is the story about how I met one of my very best friends, Linda. It is also a story about how heaven sends you a helping hand when needed.

It was the summer 2005. I was in the middle of a very, and I mean VERY hard breakup, that included harrassment and threats. As usual in Norwegian summer days, it was raining. And also as usual, I was driving down our valley. Then I saw something very unusual. A girl, hitch-hiking in the rain. The thing about her, that was so unusual, was : She was smiling. Even when it was very clear, that I was not going to pick her up.

So I passed, and then I thought: Now, THAT girl I am supposed to pick up! So I did. All she wanted was a ride for twenty minutes. She ended up living with me for a week. In this week she taught me to stop moaning and start living. She taught me how to maintain a body! And she told me that "You are all right, and I like you." Very simple, but just what I needed. And then she read my hand!

After this she came back to Norway in 2006, and then she visited me in Egypt in 2007. Lindas' road doesn't cross mine very often. Bur how great it is to know - just that she is there!

luv u Linda xxx ;)